I lie awake at night sometimes wondering whether I have what it takes to lead this law firm.

Usually, I fall asleep just fine. Mostly I’m exhausted when my head hits the pillow, and I’m sleeping as soon as my eyes close.

But then it’s 3:45 AM. I wake up and look at the red numbers on the clock. I tell myself it’s still time for sleeping.

I close my eyes. I will myself to sleep, but the questions come.

• Can I figure it all out?
• Can I make the clients happy?
• Can I keep our team on track?
• Will we have the money we need to meet the expenses?
• Will that client really complain to the State Bar?
• Am I able to do all I need to do?

I try rolling to the right side, then the left. My wife stirs as I rock around, trying to get back to sleep.

I debate just getting up. Maybe I can get some work done? Maybe I can fall back to sleep on the couch?

I play games in my head trying to get the questions to stop.

Finally, usually, I slip back into sleep and wake up a few hours later at my usual time.

Once the day starts, the questions stop. Life goes on until I go back to sleep again.